Chapter 9 - Stand and Deliver

The cherry tree was in full bloom by the first week of May.
The blossoms were not white; they were that pale, bruised pink that looks like tissue paper after a rainstorm, scattering across Matteo’s stone in drift-lines that followed the curve of the north wind.
Alina stood beneath the branches.
She had left the crutch against the trunk of the tree, eight feet behind her.
Her feet were planted six inches apart in the damp rye grass, her purple sneakers—cleaned now, the mud brushed out of the treads with an old vegetable brush—sinking slightly into the dark earth.
She was not falling.
Her hips were level. Her spine, held together by two titanium rods and sixteen pedicle screws that Dr. Keller had said would never bear forty pounds of shear stress, was straight.
Behind her, fifty yards back on the terrace, Marco sat in a teak garden chair with a cup of black coffee that had gone cold an hour ago.
Elena was beside him, shelling peas into a blue ceramic bowl, the dry *pop-pop* of the pods breaking the morning silence with the regularity of an old clock.
“She’s going to run,” Elena said softly.
Marco took a sip of the cold coffee. “She can’t run yet. Keller said the nerve conduction velocity is only forty percent of normal.”
“Keller does not know about the red shorts,” Elena said without looking up from her peas.
Under the cherry tree, Sophia was crouching in the clover.
She had found a caterpillar—a fat, black-and-brown woolly bear that had survived the winter under the foundation stones—and was attempting to persuade it to crawl into her red measuring cup.
“He has too many feet,” Sophia complained.
Alina looked down at her.
The wind coming off the river carried the scent of lilacs from the lower garden, the smell of damp bark, and the faint, sweet exhaust of the lawnmowers working on the parkway three miles west.
“He needs them,” Alina said. “He has a lot of work to do before he turns into a moth.”
“Moths are ugly,” Sophia said. “They eat the blankets.”
“Not these ones. These ones are big. They have eyes on their wings.”
Sophia stood up.
She didn't have her yellow boots today. She was barefoot, her small toes gripping the clover like the roots of a small plant, her white cotton dress stained with green at the knees where she had been kneeling in the grass.
She looked at Matteo’s stone.
The granite was cold, gray, three feet high, with only the name and the dates cut into the face:
*MATTEO EDUARDO MORETTI*
*MAY 14, 2003 – NOVEMBER 4, 2023*
*“The wind bloweth where it listeth.”*
Sophia reached out and laid her flat palm against the top of the stone, where the pink cherry petals had gathered in the hollow of the carved cross.
“He’s not here,” the child said.
“I know,” Alina whispered.
“He went down to the water,” Sophia said, pointing toward the south, where the gray towers of the bridge were visible above the treeline like two iron needles stuck into the sky. “He said he has the boat with the two engines now. The one Papa wouldn't buy him.”
Alina let out a sound that was half a laugh and half a sob.
Marco had refused to buy Matteo the thirty-eight-foot Fountain cigarette boat for his twentieth birthday, telling him he would kill himself before he learned how to trim the drives.
“Did he say that?” Alina asked, her eyes hot with tears that didn't hurt anymore.
“He said you’re still a crybaby,” Sophia said, turning around and taking two steps toward the terrace. She halted, turned back, and looked at Alina with that same ancient, immovable certainty that had started the whole world spinning on a rainy afternoon in December.
“Catch me,” the toddler said.
She didn't wait.
She took off across the wet lawn—not with the clumsy, rolling waddle of the nursery, but with the frantic, wind-milled sprint of a three-year-old who had discovered that her heels didn't have to touch the ground if she moved fast enough.
She was heading toward the lower terrace where the stone urns were filled with red geraniums.
Alina did not look back for the crutch.
She didn't look at the cherry tree. She didn't look at her father on the porch or at the cold granite stone that Matteo had left behind.
She leaned forward.
Her right foot struck the earth.
The turf gave beneath her weight—a soft, wet, springy resistance that drove the energy back up through her calf, through the hamstring, through the gluteus that had spent five months learning how to be stone.
Her left foot came through.
It didn't drag. The toe cleared the grass by two inches—not high, not pretty, an ugly, galloping hitch of a stride that made her arms swing wide like the wings of a brown paper crane.
*One. Two. Three.*
The wind took her hair.
The cold air hit her teeth—the same cold air that had smelled of gasoline and rain on Route 9W, but now it smelled of wild garlic and cut grass and the warm wool of Sophia’s sweater.
Her knees burned.
The titanium screws in her lumbar spine pulled against the bone like hot rivets, but the wire held. The signal, traveling from the dark brain that had refused to die down the long, gray cord to the heels that had learned how to crush walnuts, did not break.
She took six strides. Eight. Ten.
She reached the edge of the geranium beds.
Sophia looked back over her shoulder, her small mouth open in a wild, gap-toothed shriek of three-year-old triumph, her arms waving like windmill vanes.
Alina caught her.
Her hands closed around the child’s ribs—not with the weak, trembling grip of the wheelchair, but with the full, hard, desperate leverage of a girl who had dragged herself back from the river with her own fingernails.
They went down together.
They didn't hit marble. They didn't hit the cold nickel of the push-rims or the sharp corners of the mahogany console.
They rolled into the clover, the wet grass cold against their necks, the red petals from the urns scattering over them like confetti, Sophia’s shrieking laughter bouncing off the fieldstone walls of the house until the crows in the oaks rose into the blue sky with a clatter of wings.
Alina lay on her back.
The sky was very high, very blue, without a single cloud from the Palisades to the Atlantic.
Sophia was sitting on her stomach, her small hands planted firmly on Alina’s collarbones, bouncing her forty pounds up and down with the rhythmic, destructive joy of a conqueror.
“I told you,” the toddler said, her bangs falling into her eyes, her face pink from the sprint. “I told you, Alina.”
Alina reached up.
Her fingers caught Sophia’s chin, wiping away a smear of red petal and dirt with her thumb.
“You’re a terrible baby,” Alina whispered.
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“I’m not a baby,” Sophia said, leaning down until her forehead met Alina’s with a soft, warm *bump*. “I’m Sophia.”
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